Week 7 training and fundraising
Monday – Long Night Shift
Tuesday – Rest
Wednesday – Long Day Shift
Thursday – Rest
Friday – Long Night Shift
Saturday – Threshold Run – 2.58 miles
Sunday – Rest
Weekly miles – 2.58 miles
Total 2013 Miles – 96.70 miles
Weekly Sponsors – £30
Total 2013 Sponsors – £818
Have had a really low week this last week. Not sure what it is. Tiredness from training? Maybe. Tiredness from switching between night and day shifts at work? Maybe. Sudden realisation of the task ahead? Maybe. Knowing that nothing I do will bring my brother back? Most definitely.
I think that over the last few weeks I have suddenly come to realise that Graham has gone. I will never see him, touch him, or speak to him again. Gone…….
OK, so I have known this since April 8th 2012, the day he went to sleep, but, I don’t think anyone really accepts it from the outset. I remember in the times leading up to Graham passing, some people saying “I guess it may be a bit easier knowing this was going to happen” and after his death “At least he is no longer in pain”. All of this is true, but the gap he has left behind and the pain that fills that gap is unspeakable. We all just want him back, when he was well, and to relive those good times again.
I have however sought some solace in a poem I would like to share with you, that when I read it, just helps to lift my sorrow a bit 🙂
Miss me, but let me go
When I come to the end of the road
And the sun has set for me,
I want no tears in a gloom-filled room,
Why cry for a soul set free?
Miss me a little – But not for long
And not with your head bowed low,
Remember the love that we once shared,
Miss me – But let me go.
For this is a journey we all must take,
And each must go alone,
It’s all a part of the Master’s plan
A step on the road to home.
When you are lonely and sick of heart
Go to your friends that we know,
And bury your sorrows in doing good works,
Miss me – But let me go
I do think however that there is a bit of a training lull playing it’s part at the moment as well. As runner usually helps me through these difficult moments….. I seem to be finding excuses which have been there before but have never got in the way… I have been seeking some advice from my fellow ‘Team Orange’ members (running for the same charity in the London Marathon) and would like to share their thoughts on picking yourself up when things are low.
Bernie says –
Add all the miles you do and keep a record to see your progress.
Take pride in your achievements (records help you realise these)
Give yourself rewards – a treat after you complete a run. Take away, meal out, trip to cinema.
Rewards during a run. I’ll have a gel, drink or jelly baby when I get to the top of the hill, the next lampost, next mile marker etc
If you run out and back, tell yourself the return journey is downhill.
Have positive thoughts:
I’m an athlete! (Oh yes you are …. You are going to run a marathon soon!)
I can do this!
I’m going to feeling proud when I’ve done this!
>Find people to run with – enormously helpful
>Listen to music, podcasts, motivational recordings
>Sing a motivational tune in your head (or outloud)
>count to 100 repeatedly (I did this from mile 6 in last year’s marathon when I strained my calf and needed to think of something other than my calf for the next 20 miles!! It works!!)